19 X 25 inches
Monotype, Color Pencil & Linoleum Block on Handmade Korean Hanji Paper
Over the past two years, I have embarked on a journey to connect more deeply and intentionally to my own pleasure, and to unlearn many myths around love, sex, and relationships. In 2012, I came out publicly about my abortion, and after a year of traveling around the country sharing my story, I realized that I was not talking about the systemic conditions around my abortion, that is, the way that our society scrutinizes, shames, and represses all expressions of sexuality. I revisited all the fear-based messages that I received around sexual pleasure as a child and adolescent - messages such as “Close your legs! Don’t give it up. Don’t. Get. Pregnant.” For nearly 25 years of my life, I wasn’t taught how to ask for what I desired sexually. I did not have the tools to understand the complexity and the possibilities of my body. And rarely, very rarely, did I ever prioritize my own pleasure. I had always considered myself a liberated women, yet in my 30’s I examined the many parts of my own sensuality that I did not have access to. Only because I was either too fearful to talk about it, or too shameful to explore it.